it's a long title, I'm aware of this, but it's only just dawned on me, so excuse the spontaneous and protracted nature of my puppy-like exuberance - this is quite a moment of real discovery, for me.
CHIMERICANA BOOKS is not a fiction publisher(!)
Here's me thinking I've been such a literary terrorist writing the crap I write, but You The People have been the real writers of the insanely surrealistic worlds Chimericana Books have published over the last decade. It's like you were crying out ALL SEVEN BILLION OF YOU on the subconscious level and Chimericana Books was just some crude (and I understand puns) conduit for your collective pain.
I'd convinced myself that my novel JANE'S GAME was about an artist whose work loves him too hard, but it was about your struggle for identity.
I'd convinced myself that my novel THE HOO HOO ARE COMING was about a serial killer on the loose, but it was about your struggle for reason.
I'd convinced myself that my novel TWILIGHT'S LAST GLEAMING was about a small town where 'medical experiments' are helping to save the universe, but this, this, was your first real incursion into my psyche. And I didn't even see it. I was blind to the truth.
I should have understood the connection each living person, each living lifeform, has to his neigbour when I set out to compile THE BEST OF CHIM+HER or HORROR QUARTERLY (first three issues).
It's like the later books, BUKKAKEWORLD and PLANET OF THE OWLS and YOROPPA and VIEW FROM A STOLEN WINDOW, and the biography THE LIFE AND DEATH OF HERTZAN CHIMERA.
I was deluding myself, all those (I'd assumed) creative years. Chimericana Books was never about MY editorial stance, MY perversion of the corporate product, MY purile artistic dalliance in the name of Anarchy (productive A). It was about YOU THE PEOPLE all along directing the crazy substance of the novels and selecting the themes and content for Chimeraworld's six issues, to date.
For example: I've been trying to dictate the direction of the novel YOU THE PEOPLE for well over two years now, when all along all I had to do was let YOU THE PEOPLE write it. And that's what I'll do from now on. That's where YOUR Creativity, Passion & Kinship will take me. That's where your insistence on "Leaderless evolution, planetary custodians, ethical local patent-free solutions to life," will guide me.
It was just so obvious, and we often miss that which is right in front of us, don't we. We often forget that WHEN ONE SUFFERS, WE ALL SUFFER. I didn't realise that your pain was SO INTENSE, your revulsion at the prison planet you find yourselves in so gut-wrenching. I didn't realise you could hurt so much, inside, you poor lost souls. I was unaware of your torture, your suffering, your pain. I didn't realise you could share this with your fellow man, with a planet writhing under the weight of neurones that THINK, with the insects, the fish, the mammals. I didn't realise that we were all crafted from the same pin-prick of existence, that we all thought as one, that there was only YOU.
BUT NOW I KNOW, and soon the world will share your awakening.

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